recent happenings of my life
Friday, April 13, 2007
i thought maybe i shoudl blog about the recent happennings of my week all in one go since i've been such and irregular blogger and gonna make this blog entry the longest i have eva written in my life =P ahwells here goes i shall starts from saturday.
SATURDAY
well it was stanly's drink up @ the city haha i think i went out earlier that day. to the temple to pay respect to my dead uncle which loves me so much when he was still alive ^^* anyways i got home and wanted to have a lil nap but realsied i had like 2 hrs until the outing so i spend my tym on msn. haha and slowly went to shower and got ready. at like around 1:30 i left the house to go out and catch a train to stratty. waited for wayne and irene they finally came and i was like YAY and we left to go city. we got to city and we trekked to market city for some odd reason i think oh yeah i was cold and wanted to buy myself a jacket or sumf shit like that so we did and met up with the others at redbox.
it was fun alotta alkiie and alotta singing and shit quite an intersting time i had i think atleast. kylie the bloody drunk was like crap. bloody rambling on abt fkn jack crap and litterally just being trashed. i was laughing and giggling like some school girl haha ahwells it was fun tym i did things i shouldn't have done. RED LABEL SUCKS. omg its probably worse than beer ==; i said i'd leave at freaking 8 i left like around 10 mans haha my rents didn't give a jack shit haha which was great.
SUNDAY
well i woke up feeling jolly tired couldn't sleep cos saturday make me so awake and i was worried about kylies where abouts cos she was off her face. anyways i got tired halfways thru the day and i went to have a nap. i woke up feeling like crap wanting to throw up during dinner and yeah huge cockaroach crisis i had freaking i just broke down crying after i killed one the BIGGEST cockaroaches i have eva seen in my life. quite scary. anways i refused to sleep incase anyything else bad happened. i eventually went to bed cos like i was pretty much forced cos i realised you stayed up for ME. maybe it justa misleading friendly thing i guess i dunnos.
MONDAY
today was a typical day at home i don't evn know what i did mans i remember i had mono at like 4:30 and that was about as far as my memory can take me T_______T"
TUESDAY
there was a last minute outing i was invited to so i decided maybe i should get off my fat ass and go out. so i did boy do i regret going. it was probably the shittiest freaking karoke outing i have eva been to in my life. kylie once again cried and i comforted her. it was pretty shit cos nothing happened like omg. wasted my day i could have more fun fkn reading froma textbook for gods sake.
WEDNESDAY
well today was a typical day at home until edwina called me out to the libary so i decided maybe i should go wit her it was actually quite fun =P haha we bummed around and crap. but realsied the libary was closed so we went stratty looked around and shit an dthen treckked back to flemo for mono.
THURDSDAY
well its mono excursion and apprently it was so gay i kinda went missing for like 3 hrs haha i trained it to city wit irene & geffory and like bummed around doing jack haha evetually we made it back and shit connie asked where i was i said i was around & about in the park =P HAHAHA. wit some invisble guys ^^* kylies gonna get busted for going easter show mans. everyone was hunting for her T_____________T"FRIDAYwell being the ususal shit head i was mans i woke up around lunch tym haha decided to maybe get sumfink done so i started on my business study notes and some crap like that eventually got most of it done haha. anways yeah later today was danijels b*day party at her house i was sooo damm tired when i got there farks. it was pretty cool party i ate and lazed around left at fkn 11 cos my dad was so late in picking me up like i said TEN not ELEVENSATURDAYHAHHAAHA kylies 16th bbq funniest shit mans i got myself all tipsy and shit makiing serious mistakes got told off by a ranger i legged it cos i looked like a drunk and melody spikes ppl drinks U________U" anyways. what else yeah after we left we went karoke in the city i got a few piggy backs here and there ^^* anyways it was a pretty fine day until i had like a huge migrane SUNDAYtoday i went easter show wit my mum and sibling it was kinda chat cos like yeh nothinsg fun when my mum is around =P anyways i kidna pulled thru my dad came and he let me go on the rides and shit it was overall great i guesss. dinner at dooleys i had a T-bone steak it was some yummy shits ^^*
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
12:21:00 PM
what to do now?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
seriously i'm lost for words. emotions. you name it and i don't have it seriously today i just beel broken. i know i'm hiding from my problems its not like i have fucking choice anyways. why should i evn face it when i can't evn come to terms about how i feel? i'm so sick of your shit and getting crap from others its almost as if people are telling hoe to feel. i don't think i know myself anymore. and why huh? it been a year why do you want to see me? its not like we can reconcile our feelings its all in the past. wat more do you want to say to me? the day you cheated you hurt me so? why all of a sudden change? do you want to explain what happened a year ago? i didn't give you the chance what makes you think i am going to forgive you or evn listen? this is so fkn gay. you know i HATE you for what you did to me. just seeing you againg i might aswell HATE myself for giving you a chance. why don't you just go back to canada and leave me alone? maybe just oneday when i'm in 50s i might forgiveyou. so just leave it whateva you have to say just forget it cos i am NOT going to see you. just forget it evn happened.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
8:51:00 PM
tottally helpful.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
i've always wondered how much it would really hurt if you saw the one you like walk away with another girl for whateva reason it be. i saw it happen a day ago. trust me you don't get hit with the greatest feeling in the world. to be honest i have to admit i do kinda like you. stupid as it seems as i have been denying the feeling all along. if only things worked out the way i want it to. theres so many obstacles stuck between us. what happens if the one i like turns around and tells me he likes someone else? yes i have a fear of rejection. but can you really blame me? how can you not me be scared. i get the feeling that i should pull out before the feelings develop any further. i've seen and been through the whole heart break process and i'm not ready to go through it again. come on i think i've had things thrown at me and anymore of it might just break me to pieces. ahwells today i has been a quite average day for me besides the fact tahta i go early leavers and was lucky to have missed 3rd and 4th period HAHAHA LUCKY ME =P
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
3:38:00 PM
