Blog O2
Saturday, July 28, 2007
well i decided i'd blog again now that i am in the comfort of my own home haha. hmms so everyones been normal i hope i have heaps to say but dunnos if i should express it all out here anyways. Two dresses beings able to pick one of the two dresses would be any girls best dream. haha two choices the spagettii dress and the normal strapless one. which to pick? hahaha they say once you pick you can't turn back. i guess its all the same. the spagettii dress which i oh so fondly like, yet my world came to a halt when i was told they didn't stock it in my size. i would have to settle for sumfink way to small. i guess thats how life is. it isn't so much of if you like it then you can have its. if they don't have it in your size and it doesn't fit whats the the point? sounds stupid heys? but hey i am a stupid girl. one who is stupid enough to actually believe i'd be able to squeeze and fit into sumfink that i can't own no matter how hard i try. so the strapless dress is one which i fit into evn if i don't it can be adjusted to fit me. why don't i pick it? i don't evn know myself. expect i thought that the spaghetti dress was way prettier and better looking than the strapless one. despite the fact that one fits and the other doesn't. its no what i like anymore. its about what i will have to choose. doesn't seem to make any difference tho will it? its not like the spaghettii dress will eva come in my size. its stupid to still think maybe just maybe i'll be lucky and get it in the right size instead of settling for the straples one. hmmms i guess the spaghetti dress is the one i am forced to give up. i hope i am smart enough to pull through with this decision. i honestly do hope that by choosing the strapless dress was worth it and maybe atleast it'll be able to know what i am worth. LOL sory for the confusing entry haha. i don't expect people to understand justa random entry x)
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
9:33:00 PM
who would have guessed?
This is so weird haha. i can't evn remember the last time i actually blogged here. well i finally managed to blog again i might make it something regular my life has been some hectic shit since i last blogged. anyways that is besides the point as many of you may have noticed my dear blog has had a layout change. i hope to get some comments from those who may be viewing this page. haha kindly comment evn if your some random. its all OKAY. x)
so far my day was been jolly fine. i've managed to attend pre uni from 9am to 12pm for english and maths x) so proud i learnt many new things today x] so now i am at my aunties house, i still happen to be sick. but my mood is still okay none the less =) i am AY- OKAY!!
random thoughts:have you ever once thought that maybe what i said to you is actually for real? did you ever bother to stop and think that just maybe. MAYBE i have feelings for you? but then again what difference will it make its not like your gonna feel the same. so why bother telling you in the first place? i am so tired of making excuses up for you. so many times i thought wow. this is really it he likes me. yet you only manage to shatter my world in a matter of seconds. life's unfair and i guess it would have never worked for us. obviously people think you like me. it was stupid of me to actually fool myself into thinking that you do. but i was so wrong. it has finally gotten to the point where i see no point in me persuing anything, i have other people to choose from. better options, choosing someone who will actually cares for me is better than picking you cos all i knw is that you'll hurt me over and over again. i'm gonna break this cycle, hold my head up high and move on in life and i just hope you would leave me alone and stop making me fall back into a pit where i struggled so hard to get out of. i guess it means its all over.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
6:44:00 PM
