My gosh this so called "blog" of mine has been officially abandoned! IT’S STILL OKAY =P hehe I am back now x) wow looking at my last entry it was about a year ago! Oh wells I might just make a habit of blogging here and at Ron’s =P
It’s been a while I managed to change my layout it gives me the creeps but I go lazy so DEAL WITH IT. I'll continue to fix this place when I am in more of a decorative mood =) I thought I’d freshen this place up! hehe boy I must admit it feels weird blogging here again I am so use to Ron’s html coding great to know I am back HOME again!
I absolutely abhor insensitive people. I am really starting to lose the placid side of my personality recently everything that occurs seems to make me angry and frustrated. I may as well be caught up in my teenage angst days. This is besides the point what causes me to blow the cap off my head is how people are so fucking insensitive. Really insensitive. I don't listening to your problems and expect me to be the nice girl who helps you resolve conflicts. BUT I DON'T FUCKING APPRECIATE IT when you give me shit. Okay maybe life's not always perfect, and your not either, but seriously I was willing share a portion of my life with you and all I get is 'mhmms' , 'yeah okay' , or a 'whatever'. Honestly pretend you care; you can't expect me to be the flawless girl with no problems in her life. YOU’RE NOT THE ONLY FUCKING PERSON IN THE WORLD! Maybe for once in your life think of others but I guess that’s asking too much from the opposite sex. You happen to be driven by your ego. Something I have noticed over the years come to think of I am going to hamper your ego so it becomes non-existent!
I am sick of your philosophical thoughts and directions in life, just because I don't agree DOES NOT mean I am some what unintelligent! I really despise how when someone shows some sort of disagreement to your ethics or morals you go and attack them with a god damm spear. Your not fucking mature you’re not even CLOSE. Stop thinking your all high and mighty. There’s a reason why people call you "COCKY" and I believe you are! If one person says that’s its debatable when more than 10 people say it then pretty obviously you have a problem that needs to be redirected. Now I am just contemplating whether I should throw our friendship into the nearest trash can! Honestly I am tired of dealing with your cockiness and your lack of sensitivity when it comes to my problems.
I am re-assessing many aspects of my life, slowly refecting on what I think maybe good for me or not. I have found a few flaws and working to fix them it’s tiring but I WILL GET THERE. I can’t deny that there is still this miniature space stuck inside my heart with your name on it. No matter how many times I rub it out and replace it with something else I know I can’t. It’s getting harder and harder to avoid you. What frustrates me is that I can’t control what I feel towards you. I AM pushing you away for my own good.